Wednesday, February 12, 2014

A Cry For Help

A few days ago, I must have been in a weird mood.

How do I know?

Because I randomly decided I wanted to watch Twilight. Yes, that's right. I WANTED to watch Twilight. Not just the first one, but all of them. Because yes, I do own all five of them. (I got the first two forever ago and the others were on sale for like $4 on Black Friday so I figured I might as well... STOP JUDGING ME WITH YOUR JUDGING EYES I CAN SEE YOU!)

I have a weird relationship with Twilight. I'll admit- I enjoyed the books and the movies have their (rare) moments. However, I also realize they aren't good literature. A friend of mine once compared it to drugs. You know it's bad, but once you start you just can't stop. Twilight is a drug. I avoid it as much as I possibly can, but once I start... it's all downhill from there.

I know, I've probably just lost several friends followers.

As I finished watching the first movie, I think decided to live tweet as I watched New Moon. While some people found it fun and amusing (I'm glad some of you did!), others... well... they were concerned.

One of my friends asked if everything was okay and if I was being tortured or something.

I reassured her I was fine and kept on tweeting everything that is the Bella/Edward/Jacob drama.

Then another friend begged me to stop.

It was then that I realized, I was in denial. No, everything was definitely NOT okay. I love how my friends on Twitter know me better than I know myself.

Because everything is not okay. I try to be positive and keep going and encouraging, but my life isn't okay. It's not awful and I'm not horribly depressed or anything, but I'm not 100% okay either.

I'm frustrated and tired and I feel like nothing is happening. I realize this is all just part of change and the montage section of my life movie. I get that. However, it still isn't fun. But part of it is my own fault. When I look at what I do everyday, I see that some of this is my own doing.

I haven't been working on my novel.

Before yesterday, I was weeks behind on Cake for Breakfast.

I even joined this 30 Days of Hustle thing, but hadn't done a thing about it.

I've been lazy and then getting sad about nothing happening in my life. My motivation for anything has gone out the window.

So... my Twitter friends calling me out about watching Twilight in a way was my wake-up call. I need to get up. I need to do something. And I need to just keep going.

I need motivation.

What do you all do when you need a good kick of motivation in the butt? How do you get going when you're in a funk? Because I need help!

(And admitting you have a problem is the first step, right? Right.)

(Also, since I did have several people say they were really enjoying my snarky tweets about the Twilight movies... I probably will do the rest at some point. However, I'll forewarn people about it so if they want to block my Twitter for those few hours they can. )


  1. It's hard to motivate yourself sometimes when you're in a funk! I try and shower and then write a blog post when I need to be kicked into gear. It sounds weird, but as soon as I accomplish something small (ie showering and then blog posting) it kicks me into gear for wanting to work on other things and I go on like a productivity spree. So something small that I can concretely accomplish, spurs me into action on bigger things.

  2. First of all, don't be so hard on yourself. Watching Twilight isn't the end of the world, and neither is falling behind on stuff.

    It's good that you acknowledge this as part of the growing process, because "this too shall pass."

    Try making a list of things you want to accomplish and then order them in terms of priority. Pinterest is a great way to create what you want your future to look like. Or do a real life pinterest board with corkboard, thumbtacks and magazine cut-outs.

    For me, feeling creative and staying busy is the best way to build momentum. Sometimes you just have to pull yourself out of a funk. And that HURTS. But you've just got to keep going. Not out of guilt, but because you have goals to accomplish and dreams to fulfill.

  3. Listen, we all have our issues. Sometimes we open a package of Oreos thinking we'll just eat one and then seven more later we still think we're fine, and then a whole half a package after that we realize that we might not actually be fine. Twilight is like Oreos.

  4. I've always felt like life is full of ups and downs. There are times when I feel lol everything is in place...other times I feel like it's all falling apart...when I feel down, I try to find things that make me happy and focus on it. Or I set deadlines for my goals to help me feel more in control.

  5. Emily, try a cold-turkey day once a week where you do nothing with any type of media - no TV, computer, iPhone, no blogs etc etc....and on that day, go volunteer at an old folks home, read to someone who is blind, or paint the fingernails of someone with arthritis or go tell someone the story of your novel and see how they respond...or Join a writing group. Instead of pinterest, take a pen and notebook to Starbucks, and write some stuff by hand for your novel, or for your future...and then share it with someone you respect. But make it a face-to-face day only where you do at least one hour of something good for someone else, away from your own angst and misery and you will be amazed how you get out of your funk........just a thought but it has helped me occasionally.

  6. I KNEW IT! Well, not really, but still!

    Seriously, though, we all have times like this where we get down and sometimes don't even realize it. Just take one moment at a time and know that you have friends that are there for you! <3

  7. i loved the twilight books. i was probably the last person to even find out about this 'phenomena"? because it was only 2 years ago that i discovered the books. then inhaled them. the movies sucked, though.

    as for motivation.... what has always worked for me was just forcing yourself to do it. the more you are doing what you're 'supposed' to be doing, the more you'll get used to it and the easier it will be to do.

    -kathy | Vodka and Soda


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